live the life you imagined

[demon chloe]

what does that mean to you?

just curious.....


i will post my take on it...tomorrow morning...

it's 8"21 and im headed to bed....

[demon chloe]

Live the life you imagined. To me, me... hehe that means.....


Doing what it takes to make my wishes and dreams come true. Even if it's avoiding, denying, and skirting around the issue til you can no longer... then just giving up and going to take care of business.

That's what im doing today. Taking care of business. If I don't, then I will have the what if's and maybes for the rest of my life. Can't have that... in the sense I don't want that.

My life has taught me you cultivate your own goodness. I have had times where I was too (*fill in the blank*) to cultivate any form of goodness. Depressed, sad, worried... all work there. I'm proud to say I took myself out of that situation and forged a road ahead that was filled w/ goodness. I've done it in the past and I can do it again.

Some times the issue at hand is one of grave magnitude. Other times it's one that might even seem frivolous to others. Whatever it might be, only you can know inside of yourself the weight it places on your heart.

I don't want to do...what im doing today. But I will and I will live through it. Im sure there will be tears... lord knows M hates tears but this isn't about him. It's about me.

Living the life...I've imagined.

Go on....tell me what it means to you........if you dare... [img]wink.gif[/img]

[Rogue Angel]

living the life you imagine for yourself... takes the courage to stop thinking about it... and actually get up and DO it... (it sounds like you have already started down that path with something new.... whatever it is, i wish you all the best with it... *huggs*...)

i suppose there are people that don't EVER get up off of their ass and do anything about it. They really DO manage to skirt around it forever... sure it's less work, and less mess... but i can't imagine that it makes them very happy in the end... [img]frown.gif[/img]

What you said is so right. There are things you may not WANT to do along the way... they may not be easy things to do... but no one is just going to come along and drop your perfect life in your lap while you sit there and daydream, doing nothing. Or wait for some sign that lets you know it's ok to go ahead... that you will not fail...

Life is sometimes hard... and messy... ugly, even...and doesn't always go according to plan. Sometimes you try...and fail... sometimes more than once... a LOT of the time more than once... If you wait for the perfect situation and the perfect time for things... you often end up waiting for the rest of your life and missing out on what you could have had if you'd had the courage to jump in headfirst and sink or swim. Trial by fire, if you will... thinking about life isn't anywhere NEAR good enough... don't think about it... LIVE IT. Jump in and get your hands dirty... so WHAT if you mess up?... (*looks suddenly afraid*... ummm... we're not getting a grade on this that i don't know about... are we? s*)

You don't just give up on it and say "oh well. It's something that i wish would work, but it's just not worth expending all that time and energy, and possibly failing in the end anyway... so i'm just gonna say screw it instead"....

You grit your teeth, dig in your heels, hang on, and FIGHT for what you want. If you are forced somehow to give up a certain dream, do so... but at least be dragged away kicking and screaming...don't just shrug and say "it's too hard" and give up...Otherwise you have no one else to blame when later in your life... you are sitting around crying about what might have been... if you'd had the courage to fight.

It all sounds very easy in theory, i know. But if i hadn't done it for myself 4 years ago, i would still be sitting in a run-down hell hole of an apartment, with an asshole husband that was so mentally cruel, selfish, and untrue it was ridiculous... with car, job, money, and self-respect all taken away. You think things like that can't happen to you when you are well-educated and have a loving family and friends that are there for you... but somehow, dark things like that can find anyone...anywhere.

I started planning. Saved up to pay for school. Went to school, amidst MASSIVE objections and the repercussions of my actions... Found a job a week out of school, in my home state and home town... went to stay with my mom "temporarily"... and have never looked back. 4 years later, i have a career rather than just a job... advancement opportunities in practically any state and a few other countries as well if i choose to act on them... i'm back home with my family and friends, where i belong... 4 years ago, sitting in my living room crying about how terribly wrong everything had gone, with no hope left at all... i would have never thought things could turn out as well as they have...

what you said hits the nail right on the head... if you can do it once... it can be done again... you can flip ANY situation and come out of it on top... ANYONE. every single person holds the fate of their world in their very own hands... there are endless possibilites... and opportunities... for those that reach out and take them... that stop waiting for tomorrow...and start living today....

my life may not be perfect yet... i don't think it will ever be, i'm not sure anyone's life is "perfect" persay.... but i have come a damn long way, and i will stand up and go a lot further before it is all said and done. I know how i want the course of my future to run... it's up to me to make it happen... so maybe i am not exactly living the life i imagined...yet... but if you never start the journey... how can you ever hope to finish it...? Maybe it will NEVER go exactly the way i imagined it at all... but possibly something even more spectacular will come to light along the way... something that i never even considered... it's a nice thought. [img]smile.gif[/img]